"The Little Girl in Me" (11-2-09)

Darkness falls on the trees
And I wish it was me
I need a break from this spotlight
Society's "righteous" lies aren't fooling me

Breathing.....just to breathe
Kiss my black and blue dreams
Goodbye to what I thought and what I knew
If this is it then it's true, things are never as they seem

And it's been tears, fears, and years of coming to realize that I'm just a weight on a chain,
And there's no escaping when you're running from escape, uncertainty turns to insane......

So I try to avoid what causes me pain
But there's just no use in running in rain
Loving alone, or crying in vain
.....God, help me know why I came

Feel the ice in my breath
Hear the drag in my step
Pass the death to my lips
Watch the smoke fill my lungs
See the solar eclipse of my life come undone

Yes, they're all in disguise to watch my demise
Hypocritical eyes full of schemes....
And there's no escaping when you're running from escape
The "bright lights" turn to a gleam
Follow your footsteps and swallow my pride, this I refuse to achieve
History's learned, honesty's burned, and I'm no longer naiive

I try to avoid what causes me pain
But there's just no use in running in rain
Loving alone, or crying in vain
.....God, help me know why I came

Help me clean out these stains....