My Summer Song (March, 2010)

Coffee all day, every day by your side
I sometimes wonder why you came to my life
Today…
Yesterday…
“What’d you say?”
(I can’t hear with those eyes)


Kissing your games, keep touching my mind
Gravity’s holding me down or I’d fly
Away…
Yesterday…
Today…
“What’d you say?”
I ask with that sigh….


I’m sleeping in the fast lane
Waiting for the next best thing
To come along and there you are
There…
There you are…
My summer song

Purple Stranger....

You can find me at the edge of town
Zip my high heeled boots as the sun goes down
You can find me....


Feel the kiss of danger beneath my skin
You’re my purple stranger, let lust sink in
Feel the kiss....




Needing you tonight as much as I need anything in this life
Wanting you tonight as much as I want anything in this life
In this life-
I need
I want.


Material girl and mysterious boy
Heat my thoughts,
Eat my lies,
...You dangerous toy
Scratch my surface


Deepest desires and darkest dreams
Red...
Yellow...
Green...
the stoplight screams as we lay low
Sick and slow...




Golden kisses-
Frozen paper-
Never seems to stay away


Give me this and I’ll last forever
Wind me up and watch me play
Creep in closer, don’t be scared away

Ribbons and bows

Satin and curls

I want to be that beautiful girl

Beautiful girl

Beautifully bare

Running my fingers through sun weary hair

Give me a kiss you beautiful girl

Show me your vanity-

Your red lipstick world


Velvet feels right when it’s touching your skin

Jealous,
Obsessive,
You know you can’t win...

"Remember?" 1-25-2010

Remember that time you blamed me?
That night in our home…..
97’ and fall
Up against a wall, and you blamed me
Oh don’t you remember?


Remember that time you left me?
That day in his home….
98’ and winter
Splintered with your lies, and you left me
Oh but don’t you remember?


Remember that time you told me?
Springtime by the road….
14 years, and tears oh they rolled
When you told me
I know you remember….


Remember that time I stayed?
That time with the kids
So you could go
(Where did you go?)
Selfish seas of everlasting memories


Remember that night I screamed?
As he threw his belt; ripped my seams?
...Oh but you have to remember


Locked in a door
It could swing either way and….
I’m still stuck in the key hole; no key.


Wetting my bed with dreams of reality,
Too scared to climb out and face the truth
So I dusted my dolls, Remember?


Lined them all up in a row
Like it would make a damn difference to the world
I would lie in the grass and pretend
I was somewhere far away and happy
...Because I wasn’t.




Cry about my ugly face;
My life all to waste.
Swallowed those pills because I was sick of not feeling…
I guess all the memories had numbed my weak soul.
Don’t you remember?

"The Little Girl in Me" (11-2-09)

Darkness falls on the trees
And I wish it was me
I need a break from this spotlight
Society's "righteous" lies aren't fooling me

Breathing.....just to breathe
Kiss my black and blue dreams
Goodbye to what I thought and what I knew
If this is it then it's true, things are never as they seem

And it's been tears, fears, and years of coming to realize that I'm just a weight on a chain,
And there's no escaping when you're running from escape, uncertainty turns to insane......

So I try to avoid what causes me pain
But there's just no use in running in rain
Loving alone, or crying in vain
.....God, help me know why I came

Feel the ice in my breath
Hear the drag in my step
Pass the death to my lips
Watch the smoke fill my lungs
See the solar eclipse of my life come undone

Yes, they're all in disguise to watch my demise
Hypocritical eyes full of schemes....
And there's no escaping when you're running from escape
The "bright lights" turn to a gleam
Follow your footsteps and swallow my pride, this I refuse to achieve
History's learned, honesty's burned, and I'm no longer naiive

I try to avoid what causes me pain
But there's just no use in running in rain
Loving alone, or crying in vain
.....God, help me know why I came

Help me clean out these stains....